Very, very rare first edition. Marsden himself spoke about it in an interview in the Guardian where he admitted to the journalist to writing it, saying "you'll never find it anyway". 

Oops! I did. 

Before the global success of Tomorrow, When the War Began, James Marsden published this searching, deeply personal work under a pseudonym.

Lost to View is a stark mostly autobiographical memoir of faith, doubt, youth, and the dangerous pull of experience. Beginning in the bursts of adolescence, Marsden traces the collapse of certainty — a shift from ‘good’ beginnings into a world louder, riskier, and morally unstable. Music, belief, desire, and self-destruction blur into one another as identity unravels and reforms.

Unflinching and reflective, this is a portrait of transformation without triumph. A young man stepping beyond the safety of expectation and discovering that freedom has a cost